what i really want to say

You know it's a wierd way to think that you are the only thing that matters in this world. I mean, who are you. Think about it. What have you done that has made you so marvelous and talked about. People always act like they know you but that's just ignorance. Love doesn't exist or at least in my world. But that shouldn't matter because we were always meant to be alone and you keep making it worse. I jump back into my shell of a life and amount to nothing like i usually do except now i do it with tears. Maybe it's just that now i see who i am and am not happy about it so change and tears are the only things that make me sane. But what does that have to do with you? Nothing. I'm just glad you listened and didn't judge and if you did kept it to yourself because you see that everybody is here to hurt you, right?

Number 4 - Bum

MAN:(VO)

I wasn't always like this. I had a life before i met

her. I just didn't know she would do this to me.

But where is she now, happy i think and here i am.

I'm alone. Looking for lover's spit in this lonely city.

It's funny how people look at me like i'm disgusting and i amount to nothing. But that's ok, it's funny cause i used to be the same way. Now here i am with a guitar and a pick and i think i'm getting sick from all this coldness. It's ok though. I'll try . Ha ( laughs a little) Look at my eyes. God i need to shave.

"BEAUTIFUL INNOCENCE"

My name is Ryan and i'm not innocent. I come from a background of men that used women and broke their hearts. Being another addition to the legacy is hard. Ok, i'm not handsome but i have charm, or at least thats what i've heard. I have light brown hair, and green eyes. I'm of british decent so yeah, i have a bloody accent. Some people say that i'm an arse-hole but i'm not worried because i still gather women. To understand me is impossible. I have a girlfriend right now who can't even come close to discovering me. Her names Jennifer, so beautiful. She's hispanic i must say with a hint of salvadorian. She's nice and sweet, sometimes too sweet. We have been dating for about 16 months i think. But sometimes i get bored and of course i flirt with other girls. They just get boring. I mean, sometimes for gods sake i want this whole hell hole of a place to fall and crash and my true love and me are the only ones standing up. Look, at me sounding like a fag. I'm not. Just the kind of bloke unafraid of what i say. All of this used to be me though. I meet a girl, a young one named Kat. She' s extradionary, beautiful, goregous, lovable, and all those things that make up the perfect girl. She's a year younger then me though and the only reason i know her is from my girlfriend's best friend Haley. You see bloke, Haley is Kat's older sister. So now i'm stuck. I mean, Kat makes me smile, never makes me cry unlike Jennifer. I mean, Kat's changed me. I think. And no, i don't love her. I don't know what love is because i don't know what it feels like. I don't think i love Kat. Or maybe i do. No, i can't. I would destroy her, i mean she's innocent.