what i really want to say

You know it's a wierd way to think that you are the only thing that matters in this world. I mean, who are you. Think about it. What have you done that has made you so marvelous and talked about. People always act like they know you but that's just ignorance. Love doesn't exist or at least in my world. But that shouldn't matter because we were always meant to be alone and you keep making it worse. I jump back into my shell of a life and amount to nothing like i usually do except now i do it with tears. Maybe it's just that now i see who i am and am not happy about it so change and tears are the only things that make me sane. But what does that have to do with you? Nothing. I'm just glad you listened and didn't judge and if you did kept it to yourself because you see that everybody is here to hurt you, right?

Number 4 - Bum

MAN:(VO)

I wasn't always like this. I had a life before i met

her. I just didn't know she would do this to me.

But where is she now, happy i think and here i am.

I'm alone. Looking for lover's spit in this lonely city.

It's funny how people look at me like i'm disgusting and i amount to nothing. But that's ok, it's funny cause i used to be the same way. Now here i am with a guitar and a pick and i think i'm getting sick from all this coldness. It's ok though. I'll try . Ha ( laughs a little) Look at my eyes. God i need to shave.

"BEAUTIFUL INNOCENCE"

My name is Ryan and i'm not innocent. I come from a background of men that used women and broke their hearts. Being another addition to the legacy is hard. Ok, i'm not handsome but i have charm, or at least thats what i've heard. I have light brown hair, and green eyes. I'm of british decent so yeah, i have a bloody accent. Some people say that i'm an arse-hole but i'm not worried because i still gather women. To understand me is impossible. I have a girlfriend right now who can't even come close to discovering me. Her names Jennifer, so beautiful. She's hispanic i must say with a hint of salvadorian. She's nice and sweet, sometimes too sweet. We have been dating for about 16 months i think. But sometimes i get bored and of course i flirt with other girls. They just get boring. I mean, sometimes for gods sake i want this whole hell hole of a place to fall and crash and my true love and me are the only ones standing up. Look, at me sounding like a fag. I'm not. Just the kind of bloke unafraid of what i say. All of this used to be me though. I meet a girl, a young one named Kat. She' s extradionary, beautiful, goregous, lovable, and all those things that make up the perfect girl. She's a year younger then me though and the only reason i know her is from my girlfriend's best friend Haley. You see bloke, Haley is Kat's older sister. So now i'm stuck. I mean, Kat makes me smile, never makes me cry unlike Jennifer. I mean, Kat's changed me. I think. And no, i don't love her. I don't know what love is because i don't know what it feels like. I don't think i love Kat. Or maybe i do. No, i can't. I would destroy her, i mean she's innocent.

"Under the bed"

James and Diane are two normal married people. They are a regular happy white couple. Life couldn't get any better, especailly with their kid Ryan who is 8. James works for a film company as an assiciate producer. Diane is a home wife. They are two years apart as James being the oldest at 30. Diane and James are one of those happy couples you see on the news at festivals and carnivals just enjoying themselves.James and Diane are the idol of happiness on the outside of their home but in reality inside their home is full of late night arguements, affairs with men that think they are happy and in love with Diane, slaps on the faces mostly from James.

"Behind the Movie Screen"

"I feel pretty, oh so pretty, i feel pre-."

"Shut up!", Amy told me with an underlining look on her face. "I just want to have some fun", i replied. Now i feel stupid. I hate when Amy calls me out or tells me to shut up in front of the class. I'm here to help her as an aid, a student aid. I just hate the way she treats me. Ok, i understand that she's jealous of me. I'm actually graduating from my film school and she just got lucky and chosen to teach this class without a graduate degree. What a bitch.

Amy continues on her lesson of using the camera.
" Ok, so now you have the mode of black and white and most of these shots are used for dramtic appeal or to show something in the past. Who's seen American History X?" One kid raises his hand. " So you know what i'm saying about showing the past then. It's also used in a lot of film noirs. It's an instrument used to show a dark and vivid look at something such as in Sin City or The Third Man. These films use it loosely."

Amy is so boring.

I want this.

I want to be happy and graduate knowing i'm not alone. I want to get a job working at blockbuster and in a month become a manager. I want to meet a writer which he would come in to the store looking for a movie he wrote and me not knowing explain how lame and boring the movie was and get into an arguement with him. He will punch me in my cheek and he will be arrested as i take him to court. I want to settle for a film to be made by me and he produce it and after that we become good friends as i meet actors i love and they become my characters in my film i created.

CHARACTERS FOR NEW SCRIPT

RYAN: Young white male. Honest yet will do anything to make things right. In love with Katrina. He's got a smile that can break your heart as he doesn't try to be anything special but is regardless.

JULIAN: Ryan's cousin. Of course a white guy. Very rugged looking and mean. Also a racist towards asians. Heart of ice but also can start a little fire as he does have some compassion.

KATRINA: Asian girl. Very detirmined and knows what she wants. She also has a problem with drugs. Her parents are divorced which would to her be amazing considering how many asian parents stay together.

BRYAN: Young guy. All he wants to do is get in Katrinas pants. He is also Julians best friend and a racist as he deals with the conflict of both of these problems of him likeing the enemy. Also is the one that get's Katrina the drugs.

HOLLY: Katrina's sister. She really like's Bryan. She's more of a party girl only being a year younger then Katrina. She is a senior in High School.