"BEAUTIFUL INNOCENCE"

My name is Ryan and i'm not innocent. I come from a background of men that used women and broke their hearts. Being another addition to the legacy is hard. Ok, i'm not handsome but i have charm, or at least thats what i've heard. I have light brown hair, and green eyes. I'm of british decent so yeah, i have a bloody accent. Some people say that i'm an arse-hole but i'm not worried because i still gather women. To understand me is impossible. I have a girlfriend right now who can't even come close to discovering me. Her names Jennifer, so beautiful. She's hispanic i must say with a hint of salvadorian. She's nice and sweet, sometimes too sweet. We have been dating for about 16 months i think. But sometimes i get bored and of course i flirt with other girls. They just get boring. I mean, sometimes for gods sake i want this whole hell hole of a place to fall and crash and my true love and me are the only ones standing up. Look, at me sounding like a fag. I'm not. Just the kind of bloke unafraid of what i say. All of this used to be me though. I meet a girl, a young one named Kat. She' s extradionary, beautiful, goregous, lovable, and all those things that make up the perfect girl. She's a year younger then me though and the only reason i know her is from my girlfriend's best friend Haley. You see bloke, Haley is Kat's older sister. So now i'm stuck. I mean, Kat makes me smile, never makes me cry unlike Jennifer. I mean, Kat's changed me. I think. And no, i don't love her. I don't know what love is because i don't know what it feels like. I don't think i love Kat. Or maybe i do. No, i can't. I would destroy her, i mean she's innocent.